The aimless days

Prom

It was a little stressful at times.

But I can say I had fun. 

I’m happy I went to prom with you.

I wouldn’t have gone with anyone else.

I wish you would have waited a week after though..

I’m a total basket case,

yeah I know everyone can see it.

The 712 emotions I have right now, suck.

I’m so scared, In two weeks school is over, then I’ll never see you again.

I really want my best friend back. 

we had so many plans..

I tell myself

I know why this happened, and I try so hard to not blame myself.

I was so happy.

What gets me the most is how you looked at me the night before.

How you danced with me, how you held me and talked to me at your house afterwards and said you loved me.

It wasn’t fake. So don’t tell me you dont love me anymore.

For what ever the justification you’re using, and however you choose to cope with the change.

please dont cut me off.

I can’t lose my best friend. I’ve spent 80% of the past two years with you.

You got me through this high school. You were my friend when no one else was.

I remember all the kind words you told me. I remember everything. You opened my eyes to people that I could call my friends and a city that I came to know. You were always there for me, 

It’s funny to say, I’m not even mad at you.

I wish I could have been there for you, I wish we would have talked about it.

I once balanced you out.

So please don’t cut me out.